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Sheridan and I are fighting and this is what I said to her.
hmmmm.......... WELL................ I"M SO SICK OF IT! And I don't understand why your not! You can get any one!! And every one loves you!! But no.... I have to be the mature one who mothers like. YOU have no idea what I feel like. AND NO we didn't talk about it. MOM talked to me about it. And I apologized to him and got kick on the ground! I"M SO tired of being the strong one and holding other people together. And watching the people I care about most (you witch I don't understand why any more) keep getting hurt and there is NOTHING I can do!!!! I wrote that message about how much I love you when you broke up with him. You have NO IDEA how happy people were fore you!! You sit there and complain that your birthday sucked, I didn't have nearly as many people care about me in such a way that every one cared about YOU! Not even my BEST FRIENDS!! Robert and ONDY!! And that was the one day that summer that I wasn't worried about YOU. Maybe I don't understand you, but I have TRIED AND TRIED AND TRIED!! I've even given up trying because it seamed that that was what you wanted. I post something about how much I love you and all I get back is "...he cares too..." GOD why don't you just throw me out side naked! I WASN"T even attacking him in that!! I WAS SUPPORTING YOU!! I have tried so hard all my life and I feel like I have gotten NO WHERE! I'm ready to GIVE UP! I honestly can't think of a time that you gave anything to me because you wanted to show me you LOVE me. Not even on my birthday. If I ever got anything from you it was because I asked. No I didn't have to buy you point shoes, No I didn't have to make you breakfast, but I wanted to make sure you knew I LOVE YOU. I have also written you many letters like this and I get NO reply, they aren't for me to vent Shit head! I'm done, I'm done. I will try my hardest to be done.
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Well...some days I thank my lucky stars that I don't have a sister that is very close in age to me (Tannis is 8 years younger than me). But I've definitely had my drama and fights with my brothers. Let me just say that while it sucks now, things do get better. I honestly hated my brothers growing up and they didn't like me very much either. But now we NEVER fight. We have the upmost respect for one another and show nothing but love for each other when together. It's amazing. Don't give up on Sheridan. I know she loves you. She does!! I'm positive. Just keep showing your unconditional love for her and eventually she will come around. I KNOW it's hard, but you just need to be patient. You have done AMAZING things for your family, and the Lord will bless you for it! Just keep her in your prayers. I'm praying for you, too!
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