Lately I've been having a bit of anxiety/ depression. I've never been the kind of girl you would think that I would, I never thought I would either. But I guess every one has to reach that point some time in their life right? For some it's more than others, but eventually we will all go threw it. Sheridan is what has blown me over the top. I have spent my enter life watching over this girl and have got so little as a slap in the face for it. So I decided that I was done, but the more that I try to be done the more everything hurts. No it's not just her, it's Robert:
We WERE best friends and now... he will barley even look my way. I make him brownies and he says ??....
it's School:
I value my education but when I don't understand something (witch isn't allot) I just break down and cry
it's boys, it's working so hard and barley seeing a difference, it's being tired of stupid people and ungrateful people:
I give soooo much to other people and I can count on my fingers how many times people have given back to me.... but for some reason I keep on giving
it's dealing with life and learning that I am still a teen so maybe sometimes I should act like it and have some fun... for me.
To cut the sob's I feel so dumb for the way I've been feeling, witch is sorry for myself. I have no reason so feel sorry for my self! I have such wonderful friends (Brianne, Stephany, SeeBass, Brad, Allana, Amanda, Cassidy, Hannah, and more) that care to just give me a random txt just to let me know that they love me, and they care about me (thank you Landon Beach and taylor Davis). I have MAKIL BIRD, O my heavens!! I don't know where I would be with out her right now. And BryAnn Carpenter!! These two Girls are my saving angels right now, they make me feel like I am soooo important they are my strength more than they know. Parker Young, I don't even know how or why we are friends but he is the most amazing Kid I will ever know. I love him!! I have a dance team that tells me all the time how much they love me, and I know they mean it because I can see it on their faces. Then there's my dance teachers, I can't even say what they mean to me!! And my Mother (I'm so sorry mommy) I know it hurts her when we hurt, like the way I feel about Sheridan, I LOVE YOU MOM MORE THAN ANYTHING YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND AND I LOVE YOU!!! And I have my religion, with WONDERFUL leaders!!!! Even thoe I'm a little lost right now and not on the path, but I'm running right back to it!! There is still so much more i could go on about!! Thanks you Anthony for never forgetting me, even if it ever so solum that we talk, it means the world to me. Robert, You are my best friend. You brought me threw more than you know. More than I'm sure you will ever know. Ondy, dear girl. I miss you. We have grown up together and been threw mostly everything together. Recently we've grown, but not appart just different. We will forever be Best friends and sister. I LOVE YOU!!
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