Aw the time has come, summer is over :( and school has started. I miss doing something every morning with my BryAnn Carpeter and Brianne Graves (ie yoga, tanning, mall shopping, ect). But I am very much enjoying School! I always have I love learning! But this school is awsome because it's like a home away from home, like Mrs. Simmons class was and Merit Academy. It's more than just teaching you Medical Terminology and Bioligy and all the other good stuff you need to know in your program but it's teaching you life lessons, key's to success.
This has always been my parents passion, so a but of physiology it's pretty sweet. This is something that my religion has been to me. And as of late I've been having issues with religion, but not just that, a lot about life. I've been feeling very lost. I've always been the girl who's had things figured out, and lately I have nothing figured out, and it's been a whole different story. I believe that the priesthood is the true power of God. And I believe the gospel, but not the people.
People are naturally judgmental, and hold them selves higher than others, there are VERY FEW in this world that are NOT, my mother is one of the few. Witch is why both agree and disagree with the methods off the "repentance process" (this is not only from my PERSONAL experiences, but others as well.)
It's the concepts, actions, and blessing. 1.Recognize I've done wrong
2. Promise not to do it again
3. Do all I can to correct what I did wrong and apologize to those I have offended.
4. Pray to Heavenly Father for forgiveness
5. Promise to live the commandment to find joy
6.For give myself
"Behold he who has repented of his sins, the same is forgiven, and I, the Lord, remember them no more." D&C 58:42
No where can I recall that is is a requirement to "confess" if you will, to the bishop- But to thoes who you have OFFENDED. This is something that Austin helped me relies, he asked why we did that. And I told him that the bishop is a figurative person that you can talk to that will help you be strong so your not in it alone. Some one who is close to God and can help you feel his love. But honestly talking to him cause more problems for me. And as did for my friend D (I will leave them anonymous for their privacy). D talked to their bishop, that bishop then SAT DOWN with his son who was a friend of D's and "warned him" of D's behavior. Then called and left and message for D's parents on the answering machine. I am a VERY close friend of D's, D felt HORABLE for what had happened and wanted NOTHING than to make it right, and to tell his parents would only make it worse because they do NOT have a relationship, and do not understand each other. Luckily D got to the message FIRST. But if D's parents found out he would have lost his desire to make it wright. Witch I understand was NOT the role of the bishop, however because the bishop IS human, and he felt that he WAS doing the right thing. For D talking to me was more of a help than the bishop, and for me talking to my dance teacher Marry was more of a help, she helped me understand and see things because she has a relationship with God AND me. Most of all she didn't stick me out like a rose in a meadow of daisies, she simple loved me. ONE example of many that this perfect gospel is flawed by the people.
However, please do not get the impression that I don't believe the GOSPEL for a second. I love it, it makes me who I am, and with out it I could not imagine life, but I think alot of things are OVER exaggerated. And I'm afraid that some times the Church is ran TO MUCH by the imperfect people (that are good people, but none the less imperfect), instead of by God witch is the way it should be. EX When I talked to my bishop he said that he had prayed about it and he just really felt that it should be this way, and once I told him my opinion ALLL THE SUDDEN... he felt a different way about i...hmm inturperit that how you want to. But I will say this, no one elts can receive answers for you, I tried once asking God if Austin would go Mormon and the answer I kept getting back was I was a blessed child and God had a great plan for me. Talk about slap in the face.
Any way... I've had alot of life questions and in the awesome school that I'm attending one of our classes is strategies for success and one assignment for it is a dream poster, witch I completely belive WORKS it's worked many times for me. BUT in order to achieve your dream you have to have one. And that's where I'm stuck.
