When in doubt, I count my blessings.

Lately I've been having a bit of anxiety/ depression. I've never been the kind of girl you would think that I would, I never thought I would either. But I guess every one has to reach that point some time in their life  right? For some it's more than others, but eventually we will all go threw it. Sheridan is what has blown me over the top. I have spent my enter life watching over this girl and have got so little as a slap in the face for it. So I decided that I was done, but the more that I try to be done the more everything hurts. No it's not just her, it's Robert:

We WERE best friends and now... he will barley even look my way. I make him brownies and he says ??....

it's School:

I value my education but when I don't understand something (witch isn't allot) I just break down and cry

 it's boys, it's working so hard and barley seeing a difference, it's being tired of stupid people and ungrateful people:

I give soooo much to other people and I can count on my fingers how many times people have given back to me.... but for some reason I keep on giving

it's dealing with life and learning that I am still a teen so maybe sometimes I should act like it and have some fun... for me. 

To cut the sob's I feel so dumb for the way I've been feeling, witch is sorry for myself. I have no reason so feel sorry for my self! I have such wonderful friends (Brianne, Stephany, SeeBass, Brad, Allana, Amanda, Cassidy, Hannah, and more) that care to just give me a random txt just to let me know that they love me, and they care about me (thank you Landon Beach and taylor Davis). I have MAKIL BIRD, O my heavens!! I don't know where I would be with out her right now. And BryAnn Carpenter!! These two Girls are my saving angels right now, they make me feel like I am soooo important they are my strength more than they know. Parker Young, I don't even know how or why we are friends but he is the most amazing Kid I will ever know. I love him!! I have a dance team that tells me all the time how much they love me, and I know they mean it because I can see it on their faces. Then there's my dance teachers, I can't even say what they mean to me!! And my Mother (I'm so sorry mommy) I know it hurts her when we hurt, like the way I feel about Sheridan, I LOVE YOU MOM MORE THAN ANYTHING YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND AND I LOVE YOU!!! And I have my religion, with WONDERFUL leaders!!!! Even thoe I'm a little lost right now and not on the path, but I'm running right back to it!! There is still so much more i could go on about!! Thanks you Anthony for never forgetting me, even if it ever so solum that we talk, it means the world to me. Robert, You are my best friend. You brought me threw more than you know. More than I'm sure you will ever know. Ondy, dear girl. I miss you. We have grown up together and been threw mostly everything together. Recently we've grown, but not appart just different. We will forever be Best friends and sister. I LOVE YOU!!

Gods gifts

Some times people take for granted what is right in front of them. To Kenzy and Marry,

You two have done so much (and I'm sure still have SOOOOOO much more to give) for the girls at Charisma, and what have we done to say thanks?

By:

1. Complaining 

2. Skipping class

3. Causing drama

I am severely disappointed in the girls this year. If Donnelley was here there would be none of this. But that's just it, IF Donnelley was here. Most of the girls are not ready for the change that has so abruptly been put upon them with Courtney and Lexie first then Donnelley, and so many new girls. For the last couple of years Charisma has settled into a state of what is "comfortable" and now that we have an opportunity to grow bigger and stronger we slap it down? Donnelley was and is precious and dear to us, she will be for ever and ever, but we can not grow if we stay in the same place, with the same people. God gave Donnelley, Courtney, and Lexie to us as gifts, we took from them everything we could, so god gave us more gifts. 

So I'm going to go farther and learn more than I have before, because I have a passion for dance. I will thank God for Kenzy and Marry. I will thank them for sharing their talents with us by:

1. Being attentive and treating every class like an audition

2. Being to class as much as I can, even when I am sick.

3. Helping others find their nitch with our gifts from God. 

Thanks you God. And THANK YOU Mackenzie and Marry! 

I LOVE YOU!

Sisters? O wait Mitch

Um...

So...

Yea...

Sheridan and I are fighting and this is what I said to her. 

hmmmm.......... WELL................ I"M SO SICK OF IT! And I don't understand why your not! You can get any one!! And every one loves you!! But no.... I have to be the mature one who mothers like. YOU have no idea what I feel like. AND NO we didn't talk about it. MOM talked to me about it. And I apologized to him and got kick on the ground! I"M SO tired of being the strong one and holding other people together. And watching the people I care about most (you witch I don't understand why any more) keep getting hurt and there is NOTHING I can do!!!! I wrote that message about how much I love you when you broke up with him. You have NO IDEA how happy people were fore you!! You sit there and complain that your birthday sucked, I didn't have nearly as many people care about me in such a way that every one cared about YOU! Not even my BEST FRIENDS!! Robert and ONDY!! And that was the one day that summer that I wasn't worried about YOU. Maybe I don't understand you, but I have TRIED AND TRIED AND TRIED!! I've even given up trying because it seamed that that was what you wanted. I post something about how much I love you and all I get back is "...he cares too..." GOD why don't you just throw me out side naked! I WASN"T even attacking him in that!! I WAS SUPPORTING YOU!! I have tried so hard all my life and I feel like I have gotten NO WHERE! I'm ready to GIVE UP! I honestly can't think of a time that you gave anything to me because you wanted to show me you LOVE me. Not even on my birthday. If I ever got anything from you it was because I asked. No I didn't have to buy you point shoes, No I didn't have to make you breakfast, but I wanted to make sure you knew I LOVE YOU. I have also written you many letters like this and I get NO reply, they aren't for me to vent Shit head! I'm done, I'm done. I will try my hardest to be done.

Donation from the heart

WAY TO GO ANDREA!!

My little sister donated 11 inches of her hair to lox of love. 

She's an amazing little girl!!

She came to me at like 11 pm and asked me to cut it all off. That night was like a bober shop because I was dying Taylors hair as well and then when grandma got home she wanted a cut as well.  

don't worry I didn't leave it like this, I did aline her hair and even it out. 

I think I did a good job :)

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Son of a Mitch

What kind of a boy frien​d will agree​ with his frien​ds when they call his girl frien​d (Sheridan, my sister) a slut?​ And then sit there​ and argue​ with her about​ it how they have a point​?​

Not like he cares​.​.​.​

He let her were her hollo​wen costu​me (he helpe​d her "​buy"​ it)

and didn't care that she wasn't wearing tights underneath.

He let'​s her wear tank tops in publi​c

He let her wear skank​y short​ to beat up Nicol​e.​.​.​.​ 

YEA he cares​ ALOT.​.​.​.​ (​rolli​ng my eyes)​.​ 

I"M GOING​ TO KILL THIS KID SOME DAY IF HE DOESN​"​T SHAPE​ UP OR SHIP OUT!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!

​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​

If you guys know any one to repla​ce him PLEAS​E set them up on a date I don'​t care how much she doesn​'​t want to SHE"​S UNDER​ CONTR​ACT!​!​!​

When he dropped her off at our team sleep over we made her write and sign a contract to go on 10 dates with 10 different guys or wait three months before she's allowed to "hang out" with Mitch. That's what you get when you mess with a dancer, a whole team behind her.

It's me

So Donelle Crandelle my formal dance teacher, 

whom I love very much, got me into this. I'm supper excited! 

A little about me

I dance

I'm not like amazing at it but I'm getting better. I love it so much! Recently I've developed a greater love for

 it! 

My best friends are

Ondylyln Dye

Sheridan Castleton (my sister)

 and Rober Villerelle 

I'm a sen in high school

I can't wait to graduate!! I"M SO STOKED!!

I'm a little angered right now

I was attending Springville high school but because I'm missing a credit and the councilors won't work with me I had to pull out and register at Meritt. This was one of the sadist days of my life! And my English teacher Mrs. Simmons was so mad about it we were in the hall crying. She is an amazing teacher! I have had her every year of high school!

But I am planning on going back to SHS

Boys are over rated! 

So I have officially decided that boys in high school are nothing but truble! It is best just to be friend and NOTHING more.

I can do anything I want

I believe in the strength of mind power. 

i have been on drumline

And the friends I made there

Are one of a kind 

they are amazing!